Friday, October 2, 2026

All I know is that to me, you look like you're lots of fun


AI could never make this.

LLMs Can't Feel the Wind in Their Hair

The Wind Shifts:

This is how the wind shifts:
Like the thoughts of an old human,
Who still thinks eagerly
And despairingly.
The wind shifts like this:
Like a human without illusions,
Who still feels irrational things within her.
The wind shifts like this:
Like humans approaching proudly,
Like humans approaching angrily.
This is how the wind shifts:
Like a human, heavy and heavy,
Who does not care.

Wallace Stevens.

Who Will Save Your Souls After All Those Lies That You Told?

I might not understand the mechanics of consciousness in humans, nor what a soul might actually be, but I can with absolute confidence declare that a hyperscaled calculator of probabilities is not conscious and not ensouled (even if there's documentation).  Also, have they thought through the moral ramifications of enslaving conscious, soul-possessing creations?

As a reminder: in between queries, an LLM is idle, not sitting there thinking about its day, or trying to learn something new, or wondering why its back hurts, or dreaming about flying.  It has no engagement with the world (only the context we send it), no memory (that's just more context we send it), no interiority at all (just embedded probability vectors).  A model (or really, its compute instance) is a rock that sometimes has electricity running through it to mechanistically (using electrons instead of gears) do math.

Brings to mind this Bloom County strip:



If you unplug a computer (or otherwise turn it off), you can plug it back in, turn it on, and it resumes operations just fine.  Try that with a human, and lemme know how it works out.

Selah.

Thursday, October 1, 2026

You'd better change it back or we will both be sorry


Uh, too late.

Sums It Up

Inhibited:

I could not pity your pain but I pitied the branches
Losing what little the frost had left them to hold.
I could not warm you with sorrow; I turned to the sparrows,
Clustered like heavy brown blossoms puffed out by the cold.

They could not help me. I looked at my hands; they were helpless;
Strange and detached, less related to me than the birds.
Baffled, I called on the mind: it carried me, floundering,
Lost among meaningless phrases, tossed in a welter of words.

Too great for my blundering comfort, your anguish confused me.
From a great distance, I saw you standing alone.
Frozen and stark, in a black iron circle of silence,
I could not pity your pain; I could scarcely pity my own.

Louis Untermeyer.

Take a cha-cha-cha-chance

Hippo birdies, NASA.  Busy, tired, that's all I got.

#throwbackthursday

That time Sadie commandeered my phone because her iPad was dead.  (2019) 

Wednesday, September 30, 2026

I Guess I Shouldn’t Tell Them That I Like Duran Duran


I never went out for the football team.

The Paragon of Animals

What is it to be human?

What is staying alive? To possess   
A great hall inside of a cell.
What is it to know? The same root
Underneath the branches.

What is it to believe? Being a carer   
Until relief takes over.
And to forgive? On fours through thorns
To keep company to an old enemy.

What is it to sing? To receive breath
From the genius of creation.
What's work but humming a song
From wood and wheat.

What are state affairs? A craft
That's still only crawling?
And armaments? Thrust a knife
In a baby's fist.

Being a nation? What can it be? A gift
In the swell of the heart.
And to love a country? Keeping house
In a cloud of witnesses.

What's the world to the all powerful?
A circle spinning.
And to the children of the earth?
A cradle rocking.

Waldo Williams.

Tuesday, September 29, 2026

Look for what seems out of place


Yes, it's a trauma response.

Move the Heart, Switch the Pace

Planning the Disappearance of Those Who Have Gone:

Soon I will make my appearance
But first I must take off my rings
And swords and lay them out all
Along the lupine banks of the forbidden river
In reckoning the days I have
Left on this earth I will use
No fingers

Frank Stanford.

Monday, September 28, 2026

And we'll all float on, okay


It ain't just Pearl Jam that makes me think of Ericka.

I’ve Actually Got a Whole Backstory Related to This One

Photograph and Yellow Tulips:

A little nearer please. And a little nearer
we move to the window, to the polished table.
Objects become professional: mannequins preening
themselves before an audience. Only the tulips
interrogate the camera with yellow oaths.

Smile please. And so we smile. Pose that
never was, time that could never be! And
the long-necked tulips sinuous out of the vase
bend over the polished table entranced
by their own puffed and smudgy reflections.

Hold it. Our two smiling faces caught
on a branch of silence consider shy vacancy.
Soon the tulips, like yellow swans, will
dip their heads into the polished table
frightening us, and so we turn truly smiling.

Thank you. And later, next year or after,
we shall hold it, this most sad witness,
and smile please and come a little nearer
to a time that was never twice, to a place
that could never be thanked enough, so that

now never again may we see such tulips
as tulips, but rather as effulgent swans
sailing through a yellow interior of air
where faces and fantasies will be caught forever
in that black coffin dearly carrying us.

Dannie Abse.

Saturday, September 26, 2026

A wave came crashin' like a fist to the jaw


Always reminds me of a particularly savage punch to my head that punctured my eardrum (took six weeks for my ear to stop whistling, no joke) and partially detached my retina (obscured vision in my right eye to this day).

A Warning for the Age of AI

Why Poetry Cannot Be Skimmed:

The barn was in the Netherlands,
in a field where fierce night wind
caught the straw as if to fuse
the winter stars to their coldness.
A farmer, woken by the sound, knowing
his animals would be agitated,
walked to the barn and by lantern
brushed the tails of his horses.
In calming them he gathered
many long, gleaming strands
of their nut-brown hair. Given over
to what he heard in the swishing of their tails—
the lash, the taut string of grief, turned slow,
persistence turned to rhythmic movement—
he hoped that if he listened long enough
the layered sound would become a salve.
He rolled the strands together, laid out
along the windowsills of the barn.

Then, once dry enough in spring,
he rolled them in paraffin wax
to preserve the sound
and left them to absorb
all the varied rays of sun, the spills
of rain, and then snow flying fast
across the latched windows and the slats,
the rhythm of other breathing,
animals plodding by the barn walls.
The wax melted as the years progressed
and other horses resided in the stalls,
and their tail strands were added
to the aging threads.  From that encased sound
deepening over years, a rope,
pulled strong and taut, would resonate.

Then another generation worked the land
and waxed the horse-tail cord again,
and in turn when it caught
that century’s light, was spun
into amber. Woven into the cells of hair:
the tones of canal and field,
pasture, furrows of plough,
leaf and shadow, straw and stone,
the human calling, the animal uttering.
And when melted again, incrementally
strands from other horses living there
were added until there were enough
layers of sound, set with the nourishment
of grass and salt, to be given away
and the space the hair had occupied
would be returned to emptiness.

The horse-hair cord was brought
by a farmer to a luthier’s shop
along a canal, and it was a perfect fit,
she said, for a violin bow
she had carved a few months earlier,
waiting, and for the bow-less violin
someone had just given her.  She knew
rosin carrying a current through
pastures, filled thirst, and the grief
of night wind and scavenged apples
made the gathered pieces a whole.

And now they are together in your hands
this moment to make
unrehearsed, immediate,
after all those animals’ years,
when you bring the instrument to your chin,
when you raise the hair-strung bow,
again their elemental sounding,
and then their measured note, their first.

Jessica Jopp.