Sunday, August 16, 2026

Narcissist-in-Chief

Ericka used to do the same sort of shit all the time, albeit on a slightly smaller scale.  It's all part of being a narcissist, exercising control and whatnot to fill the void, etc.

Can't tell you how much time I spent following her directions1, moving shit around the yard or the living room or whatever (when I was supposed to be working, even).  All just to change something that needed no changing, often making it worse.

And my god, she slathered fucking chalk paint on everything.  For example, Sam's dresser (which was mine before his, and my mother's before mine), lovely antique with a rich finish that showed off the gorgeous wood grain...covered in taupe-ish (I think?) chalk paint with some geometrical designs in muted colors.  Otherwise, generally leaning into lots of grey, lots of black.  Reminds me of Trump's obsession with gold paint.

Anyway, of course none of what our pathological president demands makes sense to us who don't suffer from the same compulsions.  Prolly a good reason not to put a person like that in charge.

Selah.



1 - Always fraught with danger because not only was her emotional regulation eroding, so were her language faculties.  "Put that in the center."  [Puts it in the center]  "You never fucking listen to me, put it in the center!"  [She meant the corner]  3 days later...  "Put that in the center."  [Confirms 'corner' vs 'center', puts it in the corner]  "You never fucking listen to me, put it in the center!"  Rinse, repeat.

Saturday, August 15, 2026

Nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky


Kid does nice arrangements.

When the Hurly-Burly’s Done

Set for Macbeth:

Mist on the cliff:
These two alone,
Stone, and the mist
Destroying the stone.

Ageless, forgotten
For time to come;
Primal water
And shapes therefrom.

Shadows lurching
Into the mist,
Merging in dream
And the sea's list;

And the low surge,
Muffled and lonely—
These and the cliff:
Mist only. 

Frances Jennings.

Few Men Have Virtue to Withstand the Highest Bidder

The Father of our Country would hate Trump and what he's doing to the People's House:

Washington had already sourced and arranged an architect to begin work on a presidential house through Pierre Charles L’Enfant, a site was chosen, and initial foundations already laid. His plans were ostentatious, comprising of a structure nearly four times the size of the house eventually built. Washington and the government in general were seeking a much more conservative approach, to serve as a break away from the regal and excessive tastes of the old-world regimes. 

Get the Versailles out of here.

Friday, August 14, 2026

Scaramouche, Scaramouche, will you do the Fandango?


Imagine everybody in the Mirthmobile banging heads to this banger.

As a Long-Time Guardians Fan, I Know This Pain

Casey at the Bat:

With a smile of Christian charity great Casey’s visage shone;
He stilled the rising tumult; he bade the game go on;
He signaled to the pitcher, and once more the spheroid flew;
But Casey still ignored it, and the umpire said, “Strike two.”

“Fraud!” cried the maddened thousands, and echo answered fraud;
But one scornful look from Casey and the audience was awed.
They saw his face grow stern and cold, they saw his muscles strain,
And they knew that Casey wouldn’t let that ball go by again.

The sneer is gone from Casey’s lip, his teeth are clinched in hate;
He pounds with cruel violence his bat upon the plate.
And now the pitcher holds the ball, and now he lets it go,
And now the air is shattered by the force of Casey’s blow.

Oh, somewhere in this favored land the sun is shining bright;
The band is playing somewhere, and somewhere hearts are light,
And somewhere men are laughing, and somewhere children shout;
But there is no joy in Mudville—mighty Casey has struck out.

Ernest Lawrence Thayer.

Thursday, August 13, 2026

You Got It Down When You Appear to Be in Pain


I had piano sheet music of Yes songs, and played Mood for a Day for recital one year.

Hokku

I:

Bits of song—what else?
I, a rider of the stream,
Lone between the clouds. 

Yone Noguchi.

#throwbackthursday

That time Mex made friends with some strange dogs. (2020)

Wednesday, August 12, 2026

Yes, I understand that every life must end


Ericka would have turned 53 today.

Don’t Have My Name Inscribed Into the Stone

Here Lies Love:

Though books said nothing could save
Love from an early grave
And love from the wear and tear,
What flesh and blood was ours for love's repair
We freely gave. 

This way and that we have
Eased love into the grave
And covered all with dirt
And laid the spirit too, through that witch's heart
Knocking the stave. 

Donald Justice.

Tuesday, August 11, 2026

Oh, so many years have gone though I'm older but a year


Your mother's eyes, from your eyes, cry to me.

Regard your life as the most priceless treasure.

Қарттық келді:

Old age is here-sad thoughts, poor sleep and all.
Quick anger's poison fumes inflame your sullen soul.
Not one to share a thought with. Who will come
To soothe and sympathise in answer to your call? 

All men are doomed. All who are born must die.
Nobody can recover days gone by.
Both joy and grief must fade into the past. 

All plans and deeds cruel time will nullify.
In struggle fortify your soul-if you are wise.
Only the giftless bow to fate with downcast eyes.
Only the feckless play up to the mob. The truly wise man on himself relies.

Abai Qūnanbaiūly.