Saturday, November 14, 2026

Competent Crisis Management

Apollo 12
launched on this date in 1969, and a grand time was had by all:
In mission control, a young flight director named Gerry Griffin heard Pete Conrad describe, in one breath, the longest list of malfunctions he had ever heard. Griffin couldn’t believe this was happening, not on his first mission as a flight director. He was certain he’d have to abort the flight. His voice calm, Griffin called on John Aaron, the bright, twenty-four-year-old flight controller in charge of the electrical system, and heard only silence. Griffin called again: “What do you see?” 
Aaron’s problem was that aside from a bewildering maze of warning lights on his console, there wasn’t anything to see. On his screen, telemetry from the spacecraft had been replaced by an undecipherable pattern of numbers. But Aaron had encountered the same problem during a practice run the year before, and he knew how to fix it. He could visualize the command module instrument panel, and the switch, labeled Signal Condition Equipment, that the astronauts had to set to recover the data. He said quickly and confidently, “Flight, try S-C-E to Aux.” 
This control was so obscure that Gerry Griffin had no idea what it was; neither did Capcom Jerry Carr as he radioed the request to Apollo 12. And neither did Pete Conrad. It was Al Bean who knew where to find the switch, and moments later, Aaron had his telemetry back. For some unknown reason, the spacecraft’s fuel cells had been knocked off-line. Unless they could be reconnected, the command module would have only its batteries for power, and they were reserved for reentry. At the flight director’s console, Gerry Griffin weighed the possibility of an abort. 
Still the Saturn sped onward. Conrad glanced up and saw bright sunlight. They were above the clouds; they were heading in the right direction. Whatever had happened to them, it hadn’t touched the booster or its guidance system. They’d make it into orbit, but Conrad was afraid he’d wind up with a dead spacecraft when they got there. 
The g-meter had passed 3 and was still climbing. Now the intercom buzzed with excited voices, thick with the weight of acceleration: “Try the buses—get the buses back on the line . . . . I’ve lost the event timer . . . . Two minutes, EDS AUTO . . . .” 
Bean heard Carr say, “Apollo 12, try and reset your fuel cells now.” Bean was reluctant to do that without knowing what had gone wrong. Conrad said, “Wait for staging.” They were coming up on that chaotic moment when the first stage would drop off and the second stage engines would ignite. Conrad and Gordon told Bean, “Hang on!” 
The first stage fell away and the three men were slammed against their harnesses, just as they had expected. Seconds later, Bean revived the stunned fuel cells. Everything was back on line, apparently none the worse for wear. As the second stage did its work, Conrad offered a theory: “I’m not sure we didn’t get hit by lightning.” 
Conrad was right. As it lifted off, the Saturn had trailed a column of flame and ionized gases which stretched all the way to the ground. Tearing through the rain clouds it became the world’s longest lightning rod. Thirty-six seconds after liftoff, a bolt of electricity discharged right through Apollo 12 and onto the launch tower 6,000 feet below. The command module had shut itself off in response to the tremendous electrical surge. A second strike at 52 seconds, unnoticed by Conrad and his crew, had wiped out the navigation platform. Both lightning bolts were recorded by an automatic movie camera near the launch pad, as analysts would later discover. 
Now, as Bean reconnected the fuel cells, the warning lights blinked out one by one. The platform was still out, but they would deal with that once they were in orbit. “Twelve, Houston,” called Carr. “You’re right smack-dab on the trajectory.” The second stage continued its long, smooth push, and inside Yankee Clipper tension evaporated. Pete Conrad let out a giddy, high-pitched giggle, like a schoolboy who had just sneaked out of class without getting caught. Then he laughed, and Gordon and Bean laughed with him— 
“Was that ever a sim they gave us!” 
“There were so many lights up there I couldn’t read them all!” 
—and they laughed all the way into orbit.
Good thing Sean Duffy wasn't NASA administrator back then...

Friday, November 13, 2026

He’s Heading off Into the Interior of the Vast Continent


With 5000 kilometers ahead of him, he's heading towards certain death.

Even Through the Darkest Phase

(to crave what the light does crave):

to crave what the light does crave
to shelter, to flee
to gain desire of every splayed leaf
to calm cattle, to heat the mare
to coax dead flies back from slumber
to turn the gaze of each opened bud
to ripe the fruit to rot the fruit
and drive down under the earth
to lord gentle dust
to lend a glancing grace to llamas
to gather dampness from fields
and divide birds
and divide the ewes from slaughter
and raise the corn and bend the wheat
and drive tractors to ruin
burnish the fox, brother the hawk
shed the snake, bloom the weed
and drive all wind diurnal
to blanch the fire and clot the cloud
to husk, to harvest,
sheave and chaff
to choose the bird
and voice the bird
to sing us, veery, into darkness

Kevin Goodan.

Thursday, November 12, 2026

Hey, life is pretty stupid


With lots of hubbub to keep you busy, but really not amounting to much.

As the Dead Bequeath Life to the Dust

Address to the Doomed:

Say it is life that matters. Say the bone
And flesh that blazoned it are but a book
Mislaid, forgotten, and the meaning known.
I will believe, but I have lived to look
On the cold body of the beautiful dead,
White and immobile as the moon in air—
The imperious heart being strangely quieted,
And the proud spirit flown I know not where.
Say it is earth again. Let it be hid
In ruined leaves. Account it as the dust
That quarrels not with doom and never did,
And reckon me among the quick who must.
Yet would I sleep tonight at the rose's root,
Seeing what Time has trampled underfoot.

George H. Dillon.

#throwbackthursday

I was never so cool as my son.  (2011)

Wednesday, November 11, 2026

What Kind of Dog Is It?


Needed something that cracks my shit up.

Killed by a Sniper’s Bullet

Now by what whim of wanton chance
Do radiant eyes know sombre days?
And feet that shod in light should dance
Walk weary and laborious ways?

But rays from Heaven, white and whole,
May penetrate the gloom of earth;
And tears but nourish, in your soul,
The glory of celestial mirth.

The darts of toil and sorrow, sent
Against your peaceful beauty, are
As foolish and as impotent
As winds that blow against a star.
Joyce Kilmer.

💀💀💀

Not the first time these classless, thoughtless, selfish motherfuckers have shown disrespect at Arlington.  They have absolutely no sense of decency.

Selah.

Tuesday, November 10, 2026

My dreams, they aren't as empty


As my conscience seems to be.

Rettung von Tyrannenketten

Ode to Joy:

Rescue from the tyrant's fetters,
Mercy to the villain e'en,
Hope within the dying hours,
Pardon at the guillotine!
E'en the dead shall live in heaven!
Brothers, drink and all agree,
Every sin shall be forgiven,
Hell forever cease to be.

Friedrich Schiller.

Hippo Birdies to The Street

Sesame Street was central to my life pretty much from the git go.  Our first dog (a Lhasa Apso) was named Oscar, per my suggestion.  I once made a mess feeding cookies to my Cookie Monster puppet.  My favorite book was Grover and the Everything in the Whole Wide World Museum.

Mom also told me that I would pitch a fit if I couldn't watch it when I was a toddler.  I swear that I am much more mature 50+ years later.

Monday, November 9, 2026

Into the magic night, I softly say


A silent prayer like dreamers do.

Star Dust

The Starry Night:

The town does not exist
except where one black-haired tree slips
up like a drowned woman into the hot sky.
The town is silent. The night boils with eleven stars.
Oh starry starry night! This is how
I want to die.

It moves. They are all alive.
Even the moon bulges in its orange irons
to push children, like a god, from its eye.
The old unseen serpent swallows up the stars.
Oh starry starry night! This is how
I want to die:

into that rushing beast of the night,
sucked up by that great dragon, to split
from my life with no flag,
no belly,
no cry.

Anne Sexton.