Wednesday, August 19, 2026

Do I regret the past?


Now I'm tied to the mast.

Actually, It’s Been Kinda Like This for Me Since Fourth Grade

Peekabo, I Almost See You:

Middle-aged life is merry, and I love to
    lead it,
But there comes a day when your eyes
    are all right but your arm isn't long
    enough
    to hold the telephone book where you      can read it,
And your friends get jocular, so you go
    to the oculist,
And of all your friends he is the joculist,
So over his facetiousness let us skim,
Only noting that he has been waiting for you ever since
    you said Good evening to his grandfather clock under
    the impression that it was him,
And you look at his chart and it says SHRDLU QWERTYOP,
    and you say Well, why SHRDNTLU QWERTYOP? and he
    says one set of glasses won't do.
You need two.
One for reading Erle Stanley Gardner's Perry Mason and
    Keats's "Endymion" with,
And the other for walking around without saying Hello
    to strange wymion with.
So you spend your time taking off your seeing glasses to put
    on your reading glasses, and then remembering that your
    reading glasses are upstairs or in the car,
And then you can't find your seeing glasses again because
    without them on you can't see where they are.
Enough of such mishaps, they would try the patience of an
    ox,
I prefer to forget both pairs of glasses and pass my declining
    years saluting strange women and grandfather clocks.

Ogden Nash.


PS - Blogger is shit when it comes to certain formatting, and I'm too lazy to figure it out right now, so the text background is weird.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Tuesday, August 18, 2026

An insect trapped in amber, I'm a fading pulse


The ecstasy was false.

Oppe på toppen

Up on Top:

After stumbling a long time over impossible trails   
you are up on top.   
Hardship didn't crush you, you trod it   
down, climbed higher.

That's how you see it. After life has tossed you   
away, and you ended up on top   
like a one-legged wooden horse on a dump.   
Life is merciful, it blinds and provides illusions,   
and destiny takes on our burden:   
foolishness and arrogance become mountains and marshy places,   
hate and resentment become wounds from enemy arrows,   
and the doubt always with us becomes cold dry
rocky valleys.

You go in the door.   
The pot lies upside down in the hearth,   
it sprawls with hostile black feet.

Olav H. Hauge.

Monday, August 17, 2026

In your interior castle


You, seven, seven mansions.

Gladly Surrender Yourself to Clotho

Days:

Swift and subtle
The flying shuttle
Crosses the web
And fills the loom,
Leaving for range
Of choice or change
No room, no room.

Janet Loxley Lewis.

Do you know me, my lord?

Excellent well. You are a fishmonger:

Pike Place Market is a public market in Seattle, Washington, United States. It opened on August 17, 1907, and is one of the older continuously operated public farmers' markets in the United States. Overlooking the Elliott Bay waterfront on Puget Sound, it serves as a place of business for many small farmers, craftspeople and merchants. It is named for its central street, Pike Place, which runs northwest from Pike Street to Virginia Street on the western edge of Downtown Seattle. Pike Place Market is Seattle's most popular tourist destination, with more than 20 million annual visitors.

The Market is built on the edge of a steep hill and consists of several lower levels located below the main level. Each features a variety of unique shops such as antique dealers, comic book and collectible shops, small family-owned restaurants, and one of the oldest head shops in Seattle. The upper street level contains fishmongers, fresh produce stands and craft stalls operating in the covered arcades.

I generally will eschew the C Line and walk down to the waterfront from the office, often meandering through the crowds of tourists around the market.  The kids and I hung out down there for Thanksgiving last year, too.  It's a neat place, and now that they've closed things off to cars, reminds me of Church Street in Burlington another lifetime ago.

Anyway, happy birthday, Pike Place.

Sunday, August 16, 2026

I want to be the one who always gives you shelter


Finds a way to keep you warm.

Love of Our Own Abjection

The Other Place:

The leaves had fallen in that sullen place,
but none around him knew just where they were.
The sky revealed no sun. A ragged blur
remained where each man's face had been a face.

Two angels soon crept forth with trays of bread,
circling among the lost like prison guards.
Love is not love, unless its will affords
forgiveness for the words that are not said.

Still he could not believe that this was Hell,
that others sent before him did not know;
yet, once his name and memory grew faint,
it was no worse, perhaps, than a cheap motel.
It is the love of failure makes a saint.
He stood up then, but did not try to go.

William Logan.

Narcissist-in-Chief

Ericka used to do the same sort of shit all the time, albeit on a slightly smaller scale.  It's all part of being a narcissist, exercising control and whatnot to fill the void, etc.

Can't tell you how much time I spent following her directions1, moving shit around the yard or the living room or whatever (when I was supposed to be working, even).  All just to change something that needed no changing, often making it worse.

And my god, she slathered fucking chalk paint on everything.  For example, Sam's dresser (which was mine before his, and my mother's before mine), lovely antique with a rich finish that showed off the gorgeous wood grain...covered in taupe-ish (I think?) chalk paint with some geometrical designs in muted colors.  Otherwise, generally leaning into lots of grey, lots of black.  Reminds me of Trump's obsession with gold paint.

Anyway, of course none of what our pathological president demands makes sense to us who don't suffer from the same compulsions.  Prolly a good reason not to put a person like that in charge.

Selah.



1 - Always fraught with danger because not only was her emotional regulation eroding, so were her language faculties.  "Put that in the center."  [Puts it in the center]  "You never fucking listen to me, put it in the center!"  [She meant the corner]  3 days later...  "Put that in the center."  [Confirms 'corner' vs 'center', puts it in the corner]  "You never fucking listen to me, put it in the center!"  Rinse, repeat.

Saturday, August 15, 2026

Nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky


Kid does nice arrangements.

When the Hurly-Burly’s Done

Set for Macbeth:

Mist on the cliff:
These two alone,
Stone, and the mist
Destroying the stone.

Ageless, forgotten
For time to come;
Primal water
And shapes therefrom.

Shadows lurching
Into the mist,
Merging in dream
And the sea's list;

And the low surge,
Muffled and lonely—
These and the cliff:
Mist only. 

Frances Jennings.

Few Men Have Virtue to Withstand the Highest Bidder

The Father of our Country would hate Trump and what he's doing to the People's House:

Washington had already sourced and arranged an architect to begin work on a presidential house through Pierre Charles L’Enfant, a site was chosen, and initial foundations already laid. His plans were ostentatious, comprising of a structure nearly four times the size of the house eventually built. Washington and the government in general were seeking a much more conservative approach, to serve as a break away from the regal and excessive tastes of the old-world regimes. 

Get the Versailles out of here.